A.M.

I love mornings
How the sun slowly colors the world with its light
Like how you unknowingly colored mine
With your bright eyes and smile

Happy New Year, everyone!

Hope everyone is well and happy! Wishing you all a great, joyful, and prosperous year!

Thank you for a wonderful year with you, guys! Here’s to more writings and posts this year!

Cheers!

Love,

Rickly

I love you?

I love you? I do?

Is that how being in love feels like? How you brighten my day by just by being… there–doing nothing, saying nothing? How you suddenly wander into my mind, invading my thoughts? And how these thoughts fill me with a desire to see you? To hear your voice and see your smile?

I love you… I possibly do…

Cut

Snip.

There it goes. 6 inches of the crown of my head. I watched as the strands of my hair flit down softly on to the white tiled floor. There’s no more turning back. I ain’t going back. This was it. I’ll push through. I’m moving on.

Snip.

There goes my pain from realizing that we are never going to be.

Snip. Snip.

Remain Dense For Me, Will You?

You have got to be kidding.

Seriously, is the universe conspiring against me? It must be. No kidding. This is the universe’s grand plan interfering with my personal plans.

Hair disheveled, clothes in disarray, tongue tied.

I cannot. This is the worst. Why does he have to see me like this? Why do I have to freeze at this particular moment? Why is he asking me a question?

I Don’t Care About Forever, I’d Rather Be With You In The Moment

I am living in the now.

I am living in this moment where I can feel his hand in mine as we walk under the trees with no one around to marvel at the miracle that is us. Now, where I can hear his soft laughter while knowing that I am the cause of that sound. This moment, where I can make him smile with my small gestures and fill his eyes with happiness. Every moment that I am with him, where I am constantly praying for this moment to not end and for this to last longer, I wish not for forever.

When I Realized I Was Falling in Love Again

“No! Please don’t. Don’t. You. Dare!”

Was what my head was screaming to my unlistening heart that was already fluttering.

This can’t be happening again. No, not again.

To The Girl He Fell In Love With Instead Of Me

To the girl that he loves now,

I tried.

I really, really tried to get to him. I wanted him to be happy because he is one of those people who truly deserve happiness. He has gone through so much pain and endured so much sorrow. I thought it was time for him to experience what was constantly evading him–happiness in love.

It was always slipping from his grasp.

That is, until he met you.

Asul na Tinta

Sabi nila, kapag ang mga titik ay nakasulat sa pamamagitan ng asul na tinta, mas madali itong matatandaan…. Mas madaling tinatanggap ng utak. Mas madali itong mananatili sa ating isipan… Mas makasisigurado kang hindi mo ito makakalimutan…

Futile Escape

“I loved you.”

That was what I told you when faith seemed to have led me down the path which leads to now.First, face to face.

All is Good. All is Fine. All is Alright.

I held my breathe.

Amidst the glasses and plates and pitchers and forks, I can see the bottle slowly coming to a stop.

It turned. It slowed down. It stopped.

It was pointing at me.

Isang Kaha

Pito. Nakapitong stick ka na ng sigarilyo. Para sa akin, pitong beses mo ng pinarusahan ang sarili mo sa kakaihip at buga mo ng usok. Pero para sa iyo, nakakapito ka pa lang sa dala mong kaha na lagi mong bitbit. Kada buga mo ng usok ay para bang naninikip ang dibdib ko. Ngunit sa iyo, ang kada buga ang siyang nagpapaluwag ng damdamin mo.

Reset

“I want a reset on our relationship.”

The girl said so to the guy she loved and who loved her back. They were in love. Their feelings were true. But not anymore. They accepted this fact. They smiled. They moved on. They remained friends.

This is the exact scenario I played in my head a million times. Wishing that I had the courage to say those words to you. Wishing that you had the courage to accept them. And wishing a better life for both of us.

As the Lights Change

Behind the curtain that is black and heavy, I stared at the darkness in front of me. The sound of rock blasted from the large speakers, accompanied by laughter and screams and shouts from the unseen people in the room. The smell of liquor and smoke lingered in the air. But I had no thoughts on this whatsoever for there was only one thing on my mind: you. And for a second, the lights flashed.

Sa Wakas

Hirap na hirap na ako.

Hirap na hirap na akong intindihin itong damdamin ko. Ano ba talaga ang nararamdaman ko para sayo? Gulong-gulo na ako.

Ang alam ko, sa bawat araw na pagpasok sa unibersidad, umaasa akong masisilayan kita. Kahit saglit lang, kahit sandali lang, ayos na. Basta makita kita, pakiramdam ko buong-buo na ang araw ko. Pakiramdam ko ay kaya ko ng harapin ang anumang ihatid sa akin ng tadhana.

Hindi ko Alam

Hindi ko alam kung anong meron sa iyo. Sa tuwing nakikita ka, ang mundo’y tila tumitigil, humihinto. Ang oras ay bumabagal kapag nasulyapan ka. Ang paghinga ko’y bumiblis sa tuwinang dadaan ka. Ano bang meron sa iyo at nagugulantang ang mundo ko kapag nakikita ka?